Monday, October 12, 2009

Bittersweet

bit ter sweet 1. climbing plant with purple flowers and poisonous, scarlet berries. 2. climbing plant with orange seed cases that open and show red seeds. 3. sweet and bitter mixed. 4. sweetness and bitterness mixed. n., adj.

This seems to be a fitting word right now. It is what my heart is feeling today. If you are a close friend or family member or if you have been reading my blog for awhile, you might know my feelings about moving here. I fought it. I have searched my heart and blogged about it. A couple months ago I was honest with you about some struggles we were facing.

When we moved here this house really became a refuge for me. In the midst of the chaos, I could sit on the porch and find peace. When I was lonely I could decorate and make our house a home. Peace would surround me as I watched the wildlife (or my children) playing in the yard.

Today is bittersweet. The tears are falling along with the rain outside. We have an offer on our house. In this economy, I know that this is a blessing. God is taking care of us. But I am human and I am sad, scared....and yes, maybe bitter.

Where do we go from here? How do we start over when we will walk away from this home sale with nothing? When will my husband find a new job where he can be happy and people will believe in him?
(Photo from Country Home)
We are surviving. This house will become a home for a new family. My husband has a job. We have family and friends who love us. Sweet blessings, even in bitter times.

{What more could I have done for my vineyard that I have not already done? When I expected sweet grapes, why did my vineyard give me bitter grapes? Isaiah 5:4}

5 comments:

phil said...

When this challenge began we had two prayers: help us find the right job in the right community for our family, and help us sell this house. God has answered the second prayer now and in His time will answer the first.

Don and Dixie said...

God will give you an answer at the right time. He will also give you another place to call home. Remember to look to Him for your answers. Love you all.

cindymeguiar@yahoo.com said...

Vanessa,
I will continue to lift you to the Father in prayer. He understands your feelings and He knows the desires of your heart. I am trusting Him to walk with you in this journey.

Blessings!
Cindy

Cindy said...

Me again.....I discovered a "new blog" last night that has already ministered to me. It is called Holy Experience. Just do a google search.......

Anonymous said...

I pray for your sweet family all the time and I know that God will lead you in the direction that is best for you!
-Jen W.